I'm BACK!!!

Breathe

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me

This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me

And I I'm desperate for you
And I I'm I'm lost without you

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me

This is my daily bread
this is my daily bread
your very word spoken to me

And I'm, I'm desperate for you
And I'm, I'm lost without you

And I'm desperate for you
And I'm, I'm lost without you.

I'm lost without you.

I'm lost without you.

I'm desperate for you.



I wonder who still comes here. I've just ended my last paper yesterday. It feels like I've just ended a marathon. It all started from the second batch of assignments about 2 months ago. After assignments came the exam. One thing I've noticed, I don't handle prolonged stress very well. Throughout this marathon, I've noticed so many things in my life fall out of it's rightful place. I thank God it's over, but I believe there's a lot to learn as I evaluate myself. For now, it's holiday! Till next time!

What A Friend

Used to sing this hymn in my previous church. Recently, it kept coming to mind...Indeed, what needless pain we bear.

What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.
Have we trials and temptations? Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy laden, cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee? Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In his arms he'll take and shield thee; thou wilt find a solace there.

Recent Events

Went for dinner on a Saturday evening with Livi, Hendra, Shuping, Gerald, Esmond and Eugene. It's nice to meet old friends for a simple dinner on a relaxed Saturday evening.

Eugene claims he came out of his mom's womb with that pose. -_-"'

Someone said I look like I'm promoting Levi's. That's not Levi's by the way, it's Zara. I love this pair of jeans.

Went swimming and catching up with Daniel recently. I was excited to meet you Dan cos I know we share the same heart.

11th April, Dad's Birthday. I look so buei song cos I was woken to cut cake with Dad before they all go to work. :P

Some Random Photos

More

Have you ever wanted more in your life? If not, why? Are you happy where you are? With what you have? If not, why? Are you too comfortable with what you already have, where you already are? Sometimes everything in our life is status quo because we don’t desire more. We’re happy as we are. Happy with what we have. Comfortable where we are. Contented or complacent? Sometimes God doesn’t give more because we have not grown in faithfulness. So if you are happy where you are today, why not dream bigger? Why not ask? And if you ask, the correct question should be, how can I prepare myself so that God is able to give me more?

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119 Mariam Way, I was sitting alone in my house in 1997. I had just returned from school and the house had an unfamiliar silence. I turned around from the couch I was sitting on to face an empty chair. A sudden surge of emotions filled my heart. Loneliness prevailed.

Today I was at the Healing Conference. All day long and many days before I had been battling with God. There were some struggles in my heart that I couldn't let go of. My mind had been cluttered and I just couldn't get things straight. Sleep was a good escape from all the madness that was in my mind. Many times I just felt everything was too overwhelming for me to take in. Sleep was like resting an overheated PC. When I woke I will feel better for a few hours before everything started to flood my mind again. I had many questions in my mind about God meeting my needs, and until I sense a breakthrough in my spirit, responding biblically would only be a discipline. As I worshipped God at the conference, I worshipped with all my heart, I needed God to touch me. I needed Him to give me the strength to respond. Towards the end of the conference, during the alter call, Peter Truong said something that struck me so tenderly that I began to tear. Throughout the whole worship I teared. He said:"It was Him who first loved us." 1 John 4:19 That brought back memories of how God first touched me.

In 1997, I lost my grandmother. Someone who was extremely dear to me. I remember wondering how life would be when she passes away. I dreaded to think of it then. Dad and mom worked during the day and would leave me with granny to be taken care of. She loved me dearly. As the years pass, I grew to love her more and more. She had a special place in my heart. One week after the cremation, I remember returning home feeling that aweful sense of loneliness. As I sat there, in the living room, I couldn't help but cry. It was then that God filled my heart with His presence. I felt love, I felt peace.

When God reminded me of this scene today, all my arguements with God were silenced and replaced with a compelling response to continue to serve and love Him with all my heart. I felt that I don't need to worry about taking care of my own needs when I take care of others' needs. I knew the one who took care of me then will continue to be faithful to love and take care of my needs.

Thank you Jesus, I can't stop thinking about how you've been so faithful to me all these years. I love the way you surprise me.

Trust

It is easy to trust when you have not yet been disappointed. After you’ve been disappointed, your trust is really then, tested. I’ve heard many times that it’s better to be angry at God than indifferent. I have yet to see John 12:24 come to pass. It sucks to feel trampled on. It sucks to always have to be humble and to keep a good spirit while I’m being misunderstood. That familiar feeling makes me angry. It brings back many bad memories. But how else can I be tested in my trust in you?

Tower Of Power

10 March '07, Mosaic Music Festival

Tower Of Power Concert

I like Soul, With A Capital S

Sweet soul music, that's the best!

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Today, I went to swim and suntan downstairs. The sun was so hot. I loved it, the warmth brought a certain calm to me and really enabled me to focus on certain things that were bothering me. I enjoyed the calm and quiet of the poolside. Think I will do this more often. When I was making my way back up to go home, I saw many coconuts on the ground. A few uncles had been hired to clear the coconuts from the trees in case the ripe ones fall unto people. I picked up a few with their permission and brought them home. Here they are:

My maid said they can be used to cook curry, that's why I so kiasu!

Nehemiah 8:10

Today, I just understood a bit of a verse I've been wondering about for a long time. Nehemiah 8:10, the joy of the Lord is my strength. What does this really mean? How do you apply it? As we choose to obey God sometimes it can be hard going, but we must not forget to bask in the delight God takes in us when we obey. When I start to think about the smile my obedience puts on his face, I can't help but smile. It's a certain kind of joy that just refreshes me. I look forward to learn more about this verse...

Great Expectations by Steven Curtis Chapman

The morning finds me here at heaven's door
A place I've been so many times before
Familiar thoughts and phrases start to flow
And carry me to places that I know so well
But dare I go where I don't understand
And do I dare remember where I am
I stand before the great eternal throne
The one that God Himself is seated on
And I, I've been invited as a son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and ...

Believe the unbelievable
Receive the inconceivable
And see beyond my wildest imagination
Lord, I come with great expectations

So wake the hope that slumbers in my soul
Stir the fire inside and make it glow
I'm trusting in a love that has no end
The Savior of this world has called me friend
And I, I've been invited with the Son
Oh I, I've been invited to come and ...

We've been invited with the Son
And we've been invited to come and ...

Believe the unbelievable
Receive the inconceivable
And see beyond our wildest imagination
Lord, we come with great expectations










AWESOME LYRICS

Lelong lelong!!!

* veronica says (12:18 AM):
eeeyer
* veronica says (12:18 AM):
why you lelong me
* veronica says (12:18 AM):
im not cheap k
notsyor says (12:18 AM):
nice pic wat
notsyor says (12:18 AM):
dun waste
* veronica says (12:18 AM):
you must write there!!! expensive stuff
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
aye!!!!!!!
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
why you like that
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
later i jia bu chu qu
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
you die!
notsyor says (12:24 AM):
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
nvm
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
i look so harmless in that photo
* veronica says (12:24 AM):
can cover that

Lelong lelong!!!

So hamson...

A Reflection On Leadership

I can only be your leader if you allow me to influence your life. In my few years in church, I have worked with and observed many leaders. So many have come and gone. I've learnt that at the end of the day, it's really not about the 'L' behind your appointment. I will not consider myself your leader if I have been appointed whatever 'L' over you but have not gained the permission to speak into your life. CL, UL, SDL, DL, RL, GL, DHL, who cares? Rather, it's about the influence you have over another person that is important. How you gain that influence is a different story. If however, you decide to step up to the challenge to lead another person, you would have to do whatever it takes to win that influence, that open door to another person's life for you to enter. Sometimes, we can lose that ticket. In such circumstances, we have to ask for grace and patience with our weaknesses from our followers and start to work at it. It will take time, but in this time whether the door is still open or not depends equally on the leader as well as the follower. At the end of the day, a shepherd should always remember that influence is merely a vehicle to lead people to God and that it requires a selfless love for people to keep giving. Unless a kernal of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remain only a single seed. I honour all you who have been giving of yourself faithfully to people, many times denying your own rights, your right to be loved, your right to be heard, your right to be understood, so that someone else can be loved, heard and understood. He who never sleeps nor slumbers is not blind and will not forget all you have willingly and lovingly given.

ROAR!!! (don't make me eat you alive)

Carnivore's a crazy place. My advice to gals is dun even bother visiting the restaurant unless you have not eaten in years. The meat just keeps coming. Justin, Seng, Gerald, Hen and I ate so much yesterday we could hardly walk. Trying to eat your 45 bux worth is almost impossible. We ate all kinds of roasted stuff. Lamb, beef, pork, chicken, fish and even roasted pineapples. For each kind of meat, they had different parts of the animal. It's quite crazy I tell you. I must admit, all of the meat served was very nice. I particularly liked the lamb. The beef steak was good too. And the fish, and everything la... I've heard about it many times from many people, so I decided to give it a try since I had ang pao money. I doubt I will go back in the near future. It's quite a nightmare, the amount of meat they serve. Porridge for now...(makes me feel less guilty)

Elusive Jesus

Matthew 14

An interesting side of Jesus.

Matthew 14:1-12 describes why John the baptist was beheaded. Then, in verse 13, it says:"When Jesus heard what had happened, he withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place." In verses 22-23, "Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray."

I wonder what Jesus was feeling. He seems to be trying to take time out. He comes across as tender hearted. Amidst all these, He still took time to heal the sick.

hehehe

Lelong lelong!!!

When we think we know better...

From a book I've been reading:

"Disobedience dishonours God. When we choose to rebel against His commands, our actions say that He doesn't know what He's talking about, that His Word is outdated, and that He isn't trustworthy. But when we say yes to God in our relationships-even in the small areas-we bring Him glory. Our actions say that His commands are good and that He deserves to be obeyed."

Familiar Faces

Celebrated Joyce's birthday today at her place. Saw her graduation photo. Can't help but be reminded of Mona Lisa.